Yeah, I was tired last night... however I was up til past midnight talking with the Male. We were talking on MSN for a few hours, then we talked on the phone for another hour. I called him, I cringe to think of my next phone bill with that much long distance on there. But anyways... holy flippin' crap, my desire for him isn't going down at all. If anything it's increasing. I would pretty much gladly jump on the next flight out there to see him. He's incredible. I mean, when I first met him I thought he was by far the least annoying of Capital City Guy's friends, and I thought he was pretty cute and really funny. Then when he took me out for dinner that one time, later resulting in Capital City Guy very awkwardly bitching him out, I started to develop a little crush on him. Then after he moved away and we started talking on MSN a lot, I just started to feel very close to him... I could relate to his feeling of isolation and bouts of depression. And he's just great to talk to. And he's said so many fantastic things that just make my day.
He said after he gets his own place, I should come visit him. He's living with his parents right now to save money and he comes from a Lebanese Muslim family, so apparently there's no way they'd approve of a white girl staying with him. And actually where he lives is where I grew up, and I've been meaning to go back for a visit for about 5 years now so... I've already looked into airfares, as lame as that may make me. I don't know on how soon he's planning on getting his own place but hooooooooly crap, I would come visit in a second.
I hung out with the Female for a while yesterday... she is so damn strange, I STILL don't know if I like her. Anyways, she was all "Can I ask you a question about [the Male]?" And, of course, I had a little mini-heart attack. But she was just wondering if I thought he was an asshole, because apparently when he was here and staying with her, they did nothing but fight and she's now convinced he's this huge asshole. Likewise, the Male has told me a couple times now what a bitch she was to him the whole time he was here. I'm more likely to believe it was her who was being the unreasonable one. But anyways, I was just "No, I don't think he's an asshole... but I don't have as much to do with him as you do. Besides all guys are assholes, to a degree." Good save, I thought.
Aw man, though, a HUGE part of me wants to tell Capital City Guy I hooked up with the Male, because they're pretty much best friends. Just to see the look on his face. But I won't, since that would severely compromise their friendship and I wouldn't want to do that. Just like I don't want the Female to know because, as much as I may not be sure I like her very much, I do consider her a friend. And friends don't sleep with friends' ex-boyfriends/girlfriends. I don't know why... but, yeah, it's generally frowned upon by society. Although when you think about it... it makes sense to do this because they're probably already someone that you know pretty well. So... yeah. There you go.
Anyways, you probably think I'm entirely without morals, but that's okay. Or you may just think I'm hardcore on the rebound right now, which may also be true. Well whatever. I'm not hurting anyone.