So... yeah. By about 10 this morning I had gone to the doctor to get prescribed anti-depressants again and quit my job. Apparently this doctor doesn't think I should have gone off them in the first place. I guess that is one hazard of just going to the walk-in clinic all the time instead of having a regular doctor. And he thinks I should get a regular doctor post-haste, apparently a couple of the ones at the clinic are taking on new patients. He said to get that taken care of on my way out, but I was kind of in a hurry to go quit my job.
And now that I'm unemployed, I have all the time in the world to go get me a doctor.
Yeah, so I went into work and was all like "I'm sorry to have to do this, but I'm having a lot of personal problems right now and because of that, I can no longer work here." We ended up having a discussion. "But you're doing so well!" Why do people always say that to me when I'm trying to quit? It doesn't make me feel any better. Besides, in the end, I don't give a damn what others think of me, it's what I think of myself that matters. And I didn't feel good about that job. And I didn't feel that others felt I was doing well. So... yeah.
But, I mean... I didn't quit this job because I didn't like it. I mean, obviously, I didn't like it. I quit this job, I went to the doctor, and I'm going to make a lot of other changes in the near future because I feel that my life right now is fucked up and I need to do something about it before it literally does me in.
Please be proud of me. I already feel so much more at peace.
And I appear to have agreed to go to the Big City with Thing 1 on Friday. She was all "I want to go, I haven't gone in a while, you should come with me." And I haven't explored the Big City with her before, and she knows that place like the back of her hand so I think she could probably show me a pretty good time. I'm debating whether I'd want to tell Squinty I'm coming. Of course, I really really want to see him (more than I should) but I know that I probably shouldn't see him. Because... yeah.
Also because I don't trust Thing 1 any further than I could throw her, and it's basically just not a good idea to have her around any guy that you like.
Have you tried those Miss Vickie's Sweet Chili & Sour Cream chips? I had some when I was at Guy's place last week, and I've ended up buying myself a couple bags since then. I never would have thought it, because it just sounds kinda weird, but... goddamn. Those are some gooooood chips.
So. I'm off. Might be hanging out with Mouth this afternoon, I dunno. Definitely going to pretend that I'm at work between 2 and 10:30, though. So... no MSN and no Facebook during that time, because my mom might see. I know this is silly of me, but I'd just prefer it if she didn't know right now.